Often I Wonder

I often wonder about the future. I wonder if I'll have kids of my own one day and who would be the people they look up to and want to see. Who can they turn to when they're down and the people who are always around. I often wonder will I do it right or will I make mistakes worse off than those parents before me. I often wonder will I be bitchy, take sides and play favorites. Or will I be fair and understanding to all view points. I often wonder will I be married before them or will they be the product of a failed relationship. I wonder if I'll regret them or will they be the best thing that ever happened to me. Will I believe their a disgrace or will I support them no matter what. Will I be there to hold them when they really need me or will I simply fail them in their hour of need. Will we get along I wonder. Will I subject them to men they hate and be selfish because I want my own love and nothing else in the world will stop me from having it. Will they know their grandparents like I know mine. Will they even meet them. Will they know their father. Will they know me. These are questions on my mind when i think about having a kid or children. I think these are important to know when you want to bring children into the picture.