My Life

I was at work yesterday. Landed two jobs a couple of weeks ago so I've been pretty busy trying to get things done financially in my life. So yesterday was Labor day and I work both my jobs one shift from 10-4 and the other from 4-midnight. It was such a long stressful day and I gave my best. During my first shift i realized that I had led myself in the wrong direction. I feel that I shouldn't be here. This was never the place that I should be at. I should be in a different state doing different things. At the very least in a different state. I thought about how my friends are in different places like Chicago, Boston, California and I am here in our home state working my ass off for not enough. I want to write but I often doubt too much. I need to get my head in order and do what I've always set out to do. It's just so hard when there's so much pressure, when you feel your work isn't good enough for millions of readers. When you feel like once you do write it and get it out there if the next will be better or just as good. Life is stupid right now. sigh.