Graduate School

So tonight I decided to apply for graduate school. I hate school. I can't even explain why I'm applying for graduate school. It's mostly because I feel like I can't keep up with my own writing. It's like I know where I want to go but then I don't. I have a very scattered brain that's all. I can't focus. I often wonder if I have ADD or something. I guess it's not impossible.


I've mentioned before that I'm 3 credits away from graduating officially. I'll have a BA in English: Creative Writing and I have no idea what my minor in Theater means. SO yeah I have issues that I don't how to fix. If you're a generous therapist or psychiatrist please offer me some of your services.

Honestly, I just need to sit down and read my story aloud and see how it flows. I also need to let some other eyes see where it is now and to get some feedback before I seriously move on. I mean what if my story isn't showing what it needs to show at the time it needs to be shown. Crazy thing is I know exactly how I want it to end. I just don't know how to write the road that leads to it.

It's crazy being a writer. I can't describe anything. That's another problem I have. I try my hardest to describe as much as possible but I guess I get bored and just want to reach a certain point in my own writing.

That was a big venting confession but it's the truth. But I did say in my last post that us Artists have a hard time because we believe our work is crap. Welp it IS the undeniable truth.

But what did all of this have to do with Graduate school? Well because I think I need to go back and hone my skills. I really don't want to. But I guess we all do things we don't want to do to get to places we want to be at.